Sleep Deprived

It's been a busy few weeks since I last posted and the lack of sleep is really catching up with me. I am SO sleep deprived! The only times I remember feeling this exhausted were in my "hell weeks" during high school and college swim seasons. That seems like a r-e-a-l-l-y long time ago. And I was younger and had more energy back then.... :D Plus there was always an end in sight. I could count on it not lasting more than a few weeks with rest and taper time right around the corner. Now though, I don't see any sort of relief coming any time soon. And it's more than just the babies not sleeping through the night. The fact is, they only get up once a night and I can usually feed both of them and be back in bed in about 30 minutes. (We don't mess around! :D) What's killing me is not going to bed until 10pm (or later) and having to get up at 5am Monday through Friday. I need to find a way to get to bed earlier - it's just hard when there are so many things I want to do in the evenings and 5:30 - 6:30 is spent feeding them, 6:30-8 is dinner, clean up and soothe the fussy one (which is sometimes both of them!) and then 8-9 the bedtime feeding. That leaves me about 1 "baby free" hour to get stuff done... It's no wonder my days seem to be flying right by. My head spins just thinking about the schedule I keep!
OK....OK.... enough whining about being tired. I know it won't last forever. And truth be told, there are some nights when I enjoy that middle of the night feeding. They are so sweet and warm and cuddly and it is such a nice bonding time, especially when it's been a rough day. Just last night, during Amelia's bedtime feeding, she was fast asleep before I even had a chance to burp her and I sat there rocking her and staring at her sweet, innocent little face and I thought to myself "I could stay like this all night". It was such a perfect moment. I need more of those... they give me the strength and energy to keep going even when I'm exhausted. And they remind me of the bigger picture and that through it all, these 2 little baby girls are MORE than worth the craziness and stress and lack of sleep!